what do i eat

what do i want to eat
i ask myself
look at the flaps of my wallet
fumbling and hoping to see a yellow bill

alas, i have instead
the one not in fuschia, but somewhat red
i grimace at the thought
oh food why do i have to want you
even if i cannot get you with what i have now

should i just instead
wait for my pockets to be full
or ask for someone to lend me their shiny little circles
and add them all together
so that i may have a share
of what i really had in mind
in the first place

but what do i really want to eat
is it enough to have much
and then an array of options
completely making me feel even more lost than before
i should have not asked for more
i should have just eaten what i could have